Sleep well my baby

[tonyd]

I had to let Jess my springer go on Monday, in less than a week she had gone from an old dog still plodding around to a lady who did not want to get out of her bed.
Apart from her slowing down she seemed fine but when I took her for her booster and check up our vet found a lump in her throat area and an x-ray showed it did not look good. While out from the x-ray a sample was taken of the lump and sent to the lab for checking, I asked for the result to be fast tracked and it came back that she had a very agressive fast spreading cancer.
Our vet was honest with me and said that no matter what treatment or medication they gave her the end result was going to be the same so we took the decision to have her pts.
The miles the two of us had walked together along with the fun, love and loyalty she had given me and the family the least we could do was give her a dignified and pain free release from any pain and torment.
My daughter and I were with her at the end and I dont think I have ever cried so much in my life the whole family is devastated, even my other two dogs are missing her.
Plus I have a feeling of guilt because I was so upset at the vets that my daughter ended up comforting me instead of me comforting her after it all.
Thing is it does not seem twelve and a half years ago that I was talking to Wendy and taking her to puppy socalisation classes and then onto the dog training classes. I suppose at least I have twelve and a half years of memorys of her and the things we done to remember her by, but for the moment I am just hurting so bad.
Wait for me at rainbow bridge Jess and one day we will meet up and once again go off for those long walks again through the countryside.

[MissEllie]

Tony, I'm so sorry to read about your girl Jess, I have tears in my eyes reading about how much she meant to you and your family.
She was a lucky girl to have such a caring owner who was strong enough to make a heartbreaking decision when it was needed.
We had a similar situation years ago with our dog barney, he was having surgery to take a biopsy when the vet discovered his cancer had spread making surgery impossible. I can now take comfort knowing by having him pts we saved him a distressing and painful end of life. I hope you will too in time.
Take care

[perchy]

Oh bless you and bless Jess a loyal and loving friend sending you a

[tonyd]

A friend of mine has sent me the following poem that he has found on another site and it has set me off again.

When Tomorrow Starts Without Me

When tomorrow starts without me and I'm not there to see;
The sun will rise and find your eyes, all filled with tears for me.

I wish so much you wouldn't cry, the way you did today,
Remembering how I'd lay my head, In your lap that special way.

I know how much you love me, as much as I love you.
And each time that you think of me, I know you'll miss me too.

But when tomorrow starts without me, please try to understand,
That an angel came and called my name, and petted me with her hand.

She said my place was ready in Heaven far above,
And that I'd have to leave behind all those I dearly love.

But, as I turned to heel away, a tear fell from my eye,
For all my life I never thought, that I would have to die.

I had so much to live for, so many sits and downs to do,
It seemed almost impossible, that I was leaving you.

I thought about our lives together, I know you must be sad,
I thought of all the love we shared, and all the fun we had.

Remember how I'd nudge your hand, and poke you with my nose?
The frisbee I would gladly chase, the bad guy, I'd "bark and hold".

If I could relive yesterday, just even for awhile,
I'd wag my tail and kiss you, just so I could see you smile.

But then I fully realized, that this could never be;
For emptiness and memories, will take the place of me.

And when I thought of treats and toys, I might miss come tomorrow,
I thought of you and when I did, my dog-heart filled with sorrow.

But then I walked through Heaven's gate, and felt so much at home;
As God looked down and smiled at me, from His beautiful golden throne.

He said, "This is eternity, And now we welcome you,
Today your life on earth is past, But here it starts anew.

I promise no tomorrow, but today will always last;
For you see, each day’s the same day, there's no longing for the past.

Now you have been so faithful, so trusting, loyal and true;
Though there were times you did things, you knew you shouldn't do.

But good dogs are forgiven, and now at last you're free;
So won't you sit here by my side, and wait right here with me?"

So when tomorrow starts without me, don't think we're far apart.
For every time you think of me, I'm right there, in your heart.

[wendy]

Oh Tony.
I am so sorry to hear about dear Jess.
It certainly doesn't seem like 12 + years she came through the door as a little mite and your daughter a little un as well.
Sleep well Jess.

[perchy]

Aww, sad sad time for you

[milli]

So sorry to hear about your Jess. They are such a big part of our lives and leave such a big space when they go. She had a long happy life and she was loved. Don't feel guilty about being so upset, we all been there, it just shows how much she has meant to you over the years. Sending for your family, hope you all feel better soon

[kitla]

We have such a special relationship with our dogs, they're our constant
companions, part of the family & part of the home & with us through all the
ups & downs of our life.
I feel for you, its so painful to lose them, it takes a long time to get over

[mrs boodles]

I am so so sorry to hear of your loss, its so hard to have to say goodbye. The poem is beautiful.

[Gwenoakes]

RIP Jess and HUGE and from me to you and your family, Tony.

[Mad Chick]

So sorry to hear about Jess

[jilianne]

It is so lovely that there are so many people on this board who understand the loss of such a beloved creature. Let me add my deepest sympathy on your loss today.

[manda]

I think you can guarantee she'll be waiting for you Tony

[Linda S]

Im sorry your beautiful girl has gone Tony and thankyou for shareing the lovely poem with us Lindaxx

[bluebell]

So sorry to read your sad news - as I always say - our pets wrap themselves around our hearts.